Everyone Blows It

I am writing this because…yes, I blew a performance recently.  I was hired by a contractor who hasn’t heard me sing besides my demo. To get hired for this concert was a pretty big deal.  There were several other vocal contractors there, as well as the best session singers in LA.  She even asked me to do a solo.  I so wanted to nail it.

I was like “YAY.”  Rehearsal went well.  It gets performance time and I start counting in 4 instead of 2.  Whoops! Spent a few measures flopping around then was able back on.  The worst part was the contractor was standing right next to me.  Ugh.  It didn’t end there. I ended up singing the wrong part a few times and singing when we weren’t supposed it.  It was all around an off night.

A few years ago, I would have beat myself up royally.  Probably cried a bit (I’m a crier anyways).  I would be consumed with disappointment and in fear of never getting hired again. EVER!!!

Truth is, I may never get hired by her again.  She may have just given me that one shot, and I blew it.  But here’s why it didn’t beat myself up.

1. I practiced and knew the music.
2. I had done it several times perfectly.
3. I did the best I could in that moment.
4. My confidence isn’t based on one performance.
5. No one performance is going to make or break my career.

So yeah, it sucks when you don’t perform your best, but life goes on.  Truly….if you do your best, no one moment is going to ruin you.  If you did the best you could, that is all you can do.

Be easy on yourself and learn a bit more with each stumble.